January 9, 2008
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Reflection
I'm shivering right now. I don't know if it's from the cold of the broken window or the adrenaline pumping through my body. I'm just sitting here, reading the word online and praying for God to analyze my heart.
I came home from work and opened my door only a crack. The first thing I saw was an abacus on the floor. That's when I knew someone had broken into my house. All my unpacked boxes are now pretty much unpacked and splayed about the floor. To describe my living quarters, I believe the term is: trashed. Everything is everywhere. Someone broke through the kitchen window and destroyed my house searching for valuables. They took the mixer, the turntable and two iPods.
I started to fill with adrenaline. I got mad at myself for leaving my iPod out and hoped they hadn't taken the external hard drive. They didn't. It still stands by the router.
They shattered my piggy bank in my bathroom. I'm more mad at the mess than the destruction. They went through my bed looking for valuables but came away with nothing. After the police came to check it out we found my bike in the alley. I guess it was too hard to take.
I thank our God that they didn't take the hard drives. All of the information, pictures and videos are still here.
I'm pretty sad right now. I don't feel safe. I don't really want to live in this place anymore. I hear noises at night and I get paranoid and now I have a legitimate reason to be. I kinda want to go back home where it's safe. Where I'm in control and I know no one's going to break into our suburbian house.
At the same time, I've already accepted it. I am extremely grateful that they didn't take the hard drive. I think what I'm most upset about is just the mess. Plus, they walked with their shoes on my pure carpet.
The landlord just came by to drop me off a piece of wood to put on the window. I'll drill it in after the police come back again to check for prints and take pictures.
So that's it. Maybe because it was dark and no one was home they thought it'd be an easy target. The entrance was from a window in a very dark alley with no light. They climbed up my garbage can to get in the window.
I trust everything in God's hands. I'll trust Him to take care of me. I may want to go back home but at the same time I know that whatever happens only because God allowed it. I could wish I was in a safer neighborhood all I want but at the same time God could let something bad happen to me in the suburbs. This is a true test of belief. Is there a God in control of everything. No matter what happens to me I'll still reach the same calming conclusion. Yes.
Comments (8)
I'm sorry to hear that man. That really sucks. But I'm glad that you can still say that you trust in God's sovereignty. Amen. I hope everything will get cleared up soon, and even if they don't catch the thieves, God will protect you. Don't fear man, God is much more fearsome and he's watching over you.
That really must feel terrible! But what you said sounds like something I read by Julian of Norwich: "God wils that we know that he keeps us ever equally save, in woe as in well-being." When I read this it was in the context of spiritual mountain-tops and valleys, but in this context it's very literal, huh?
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Aw, I'm sorry Chris. I'm glad that you're okay though. Good thing you weren't home I'd hate to think something bad happened to you. Things can be replaced but you can't! Go to God, He keeps things in perspective. Peace and comfort to you.
Good thing you were not there when they broke in...and I've always thought my hard drive would be the worst thing for me to be lost/stolen/broken. so I now how relieved you must feel that it was not taken. cause everything they did take can be replaced.
Amen to your calming conclusion. I trust that God is in control and will remember you in my prayers.
I was going to visit your parents' corps tomorrow and almost expected to see you. : )
Hope you're doing well down there.
Wow. Your experience is very strange to hear because my apartment building had not one but TWO break ins last week in two different apartments. I live in downtown SF. Pray God will bring back what was taken in some way or another.
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